Yes folk we got a possible bidder! A small publishing company called My Authors ask to read the full manuscript of Angelic Confessions. Now to us writers that is a huge step! They actually WANT TO READ IT ALL. This was back in Febuary though and I have not heard anything since. Bad thoughts go in my mind that perhaps they stole it and knowing just my luck it would happen. I am trying not to think that though. They are small with a staff of 28 and who knows how many submissions they get. Lets just pray that my worst fear is not the case.

I got some haters out there...does that me I have come full circle and I am an offically an Author for I have created enough buzz about me to either love me or hate me?
I always wondered if I would be hated...that is aceptly with every positive has a negative. You can not escape it. With the good comes the bad. I really liked to of known what they meant. What really surprises me is that someone actually visited my SITE!!! They also commented to stay out of their world...did they mean the literay world? Cause they mentioned that books like mine are why littiture is on the decline or something. Books sluttery than mine have been publish so why can't I? If I can not get traditionally published then I shall try the self publish route again. They said to just put my book out and also leave their world alone. Still not sure what that meant. Maybe I will try and give this all up. Im sure though all our great authors got haters at first. I dont know hear a voice that says 'don't give up.'

I recently got offered a book contract from Publish America. Being not as naive a writer as you would think I was like wow…yet wait hold it a minuet. I asked around about this company and was advised to look deeper into them. I did just that looking deeper into the company.

I heard a lot of negative and positive things about them. It really depends on what route you want to go. They do not charge you to publish your book they do publish it for you and that is where it pretty much ends. You are then on your own and you have to self sell your book. It’s like a clouded version of self publishing. I’m not sure. I am so unsure it minds numbing. I am not sure I want to sign the contract. I am not sure I can promote myself like is needed. For the catch is yes they do not charge you to publish BUTTTT you got to purchase a copy of your own book to self promote yourself to local book stores and libraries and then get them to order copies from the publishing company. If you got the resources its all not that bad if you just want to be published. They also present your book to online companies like Amazon.com and Barnes& Nobles. I am still skeptical. I looked at other authors on there and sure enough their book was on Barnes & Nobels.com Price was outrageous though and I wonder if any of my readers could afford it. Is that what books cost these days? I am so torn in what to do. I am not sure I can promote myself like is needed. Don’t you though have to break some eggs before you can make a cake? Nothing is for free and you gotta work at it. So should I go with them? Angelic Confessions already has it own site where I post updates on it its status and where your can view excerpts and Character Bios, synopsis. One thing is I have to edit this baby myself so I’m going to do that. Having some look over the book for mistakes and then after that maybe. Holidays are coming up so maybe a break is needed and I shall start again in the New Year with Angelic Confessions as my new year’s resolution that she shall see publication.

I just submitted my manuscript to Publish America. A fellow Author told me they got published by them and I had bookmarked their website for future references. I had totally forgottten about them and acccidently clicked on their link when I meant to hit another link in my book mark list. I was like Ahhh aha! They are not a subsidary like Dorrance Publishing, but there is a catch with them in that you, your self mostly have to do the self marketing and promoting. I have experience in that a bit as I'm always sending out mass emails to my friends on social networking sites about new articles I have published. I really dislike it though and feel like I am a pain in the ass for constantly sending them emails everytime I publish something and DO THEY EVEN LOOK or CARE? Dorrance publishing though does do promotions for you, but does it come at an extra price? What is the pricing plan anyway? One thing about Publish America is do you have to order your own copy of your book and 100 others to also disburse locally? Im a single struggling mother writer. Im lucky I can afford anything. Not sure who the best would be to go to. Who shall get the opportunity to have Angelic Confessions?

Subsidiary Publishing is now a considered option.

What is Subsidiary Publishing?

It is where you pay someone to help you publish your book. This is also like self publishing as well. I am also in consideration of doing this as well(self publish) for I found a new self publishing site call Create a book.com. It’s a part of Amazon.com and the only cost really is to buy a copy of your book, BUT of course the offer these Pro membership things and you get tons of resources and more wide spread publication of your book. I still am waiting to hear from one more literary agent, but I just don’t know if Angelic confession is main stream. It’s more of an underground cult book I think. One thing about Subsidiary publishing I do get an editor to look over it. Self publishing I do it as it is. I have edited the manuscript the best to my ability, but I know another pair of eyes is probably definitely needed. I don’t really have another pair of reliable eyes to look it over. Well I might, and did alas the road to hell is paved with good intentions so they say.

Anyways I have submitted to a Subsidiary Publishing company call Dorrance Publishing. I had dealt with them before only I backed out of it. They request you submit your manuscript and they will look it over to see if they want to publish it. I should hear back from them in 2 to 4 weeks. I shall keep you posted. If it takes the rest of my life to pay back the price of their publishing package I just might.

The journey continues…

After numerous submissions I got a reply from the only publisher I sent "Angelic Confessions" off to. (Rest were to literary agents) I thought this publisher had promise but it seemed Angelic Confession was not risky where it counted. Think they were more into trashy romance novels and erotica. Angelic Confessions has classy romance and it risky on a whole new level. Now I am just waiting for the Literary Agents to come back and say sorry not interested too.
I am wondering if"Angelic Confessions" has a chance. Its a different kind of book. It is risky but a good book. It’s not your Twilight by a long shot. Think it’s more Davidic Code in probably going to ruffle some feathers due to I use famous Angels and there is sex and lust in heaven and that I say the humans have God and Angels all wrong.Where does "Angelic Confessions" fit? It’s Fantasy but not your normal cookie cutter fantasy. Doubt it would fit in the Christian fiction either its not pro religion it is not.

It’s something fresh and new. I wonder if there is anyone one out there brave enough to take it on. I thought I was on the right path and maybe I still am, but my how much longer does this path go till I get a break. Till I get something. I want to be something. Right now I’m just a waste according to the world. I am nothing. To live I need to be something, and I want to be a writer/ Author. Thing is I never do mainstream or normal I always go beyond to where others don’t want to go. That should be a good thing. Being I am a bit pms-ish the news probably came at bad time. I am fine though I have those Agents still I submitted too, AND I got more Agents I may possibly submit to.I have hope or I die. It will be good to have an Agent. You read constantly of yes you get rejected many times but you never get inside the author and what they are really feeling. So I am showing you the gritty side folks. Day in the life of a struggling writer.

FIRST OFF: I would like to announce Angelic Confessions has been submitted so lots of prayers and hopes and spells I shall take anything!

Ok now onto topic. WOW I got fans! I cant believe it people really like my work and are curious. My promo videos have gotten a lot of hits on youtube. More than expected. The second promo is up to 54! I just had lower expectations lol. I just never thought little ol me a nobody. Now Im noticed and people like my work. 10 people follow me at twitter. I never of though! I had decided to use twitter as tool for my writing and I think its working. I never expected 1 follower aside from my friend who invited me to join twitter and I thought what the heck!Now I have 10 and growing too I think just got my 10th follower the other day. People are commenting on the articles Ive published saying they like it. Feedback is great and I know that what I am doing is right. This is in my blood like a friend once said. Even my mother whom seemed to alway discourage me believe in my writing. I think I have found me...this is me.

The editing process is done. At least I think it is...
A writer is always its hardest critic.

Whispering Publishing is my targer publisher. I chose them for 1. they seem to deal in the genre that ANGELIC CONFESSION is in. 2. reason is while they do only E Books this works out for me. I have a lot of people overseas who are interested in the book and this is easier for them to purchase it as well. When I did the short trial run of this book under the title of Angelic Memoirs it was hard for some to purchase the book cause shipping was so costly. This way it shall be more afforable for them I think and I sell more! Im a bit nervous can't believe Im truly done and I edited it the best to my ability and according to my grammar book Hahaha!

Coming up NEXT! Monday submitting to the publishers.

Well Im still in the editing process. I had asked a friend for help and even offered to pay them for their services. Good thing I did not pay before hand. Cause they got wrapped up in their own little world and totally forgot. I mean totally. I have been tempted to mention this to them. For how can you talk to me like nothing happened? There is no excuse in my book for it. It's simple plainly selfish. a Too busy with themselves obsessing over trival things to see beyond. If you knew you could not then do not offer. Ahhh what is that saying the road to hell is paved with good intentions.I even offered them money! If I paid before the work was done I would of been more ticked off than I was. I have let it slide and I have not even mentioned it to her. For she has totally forgotten and I do not want to here Im sorry cause it means nothing. So I am back to doing this on my own. THEN my laptop power cord dies on me so I have not been able to work on it. I got a new power cord now so Im back in action. Though I got thank my can't count on would-be editor for sharing with me some editing tips(she did semi start to work on it)so I think I can take this over myself and polish it to the best it can be. Im gonna do this! (puts on the grr face)

EDITING is the worst stage in publishing your book. This is also the longest too it depends in how picky you are.

HERE are the stages as I know so far

1.Coming up with concept of the book
2.Actually writing the book
3. Editing
4. Submitting

You would think writing the actual book is the longest part but oooh now the editing is. Cause first you send it to the person to edit it and you gotta bloody wait for them to read it and adjust it. THEN they send it back to you for a look over and more changes ensue THEN you send it back to the editor again and this cycle happens till you both are happy so it can take a looong time.

This is the toughest part for me the waiting...hmm guess I could work on another story. Or a much needed brain break I think I hear my brain begging. Till next time!

So I am thinking to myself that my first attempt at being published was not so bad for my first try. Yet I say this is not good enough! I have decided to retire my book from lulu.com, I am totally redoing my book. Perhaps adding another to it I am not sure. I was thinking on revamping it and entitling it ANGELIC LEGENDS. The book will contain TWO novellas Which will be the orginal Angelic Memoirs (revamped of course) AND also it's companion book which I am loosely titling HIS STORY. Which is the male lead characters version of my female heorine's story. Like his view of things. I am going to not rush things this time that was my fault in the begining Im going to have 10 people edit my book if nessary. I am going to have paitence and make sure it's to as near perfection as it can get. Rome was not built in a day and neither is a published book.

So forgive if I do not blog that much I am on a writing frenzy and the block is broken! Sadly DEATH ANGELS is on hold at the moment.

Here is an inside look into the life of a struggling writer. The life is not easy. It's mostly lucky breaks or if you got PHD's it's perhaps is easier. I am just a lowly single mother who writes weird stuff. No wonder Im never going to get noticed. Thing is I do not want to be the next So and So. I want to be me I want to write stories I want to share them with the world cause I think my stories are unique they are not like everyone elses,even though they may be on familar topics I am taking that familar topic and giving it new life, a new twist. Will this ideal work? Why do I have to be so different? I feel my being a writer is different though millions of people are writing everyday. In a million I always feel alone with no chance. The thing is no matter how hard I tried to destroy this dream this love of writing that I have....I can not destroy it. So I am going for it. On my tombstone will read
Mother, Writer, Author.

There is so much information out there about writing. What to do to suceed!
This new advice came to light to me today and I heard it twice now so I thought I should listen and look into it.

WRITING WHAT THEY WANT. This is the new advice I heard. To suceed you have to write what others want the publishers, the readers. Write characters and descriptions that make the reader feel and even smell the scene you are writing.

Another advice I heard though is to also write what you know. So Im trying to incorporate the two. I also am asking myself as a writer a lot of questions. The biggest one is WHY AM I WRITNG?

Why am I writing? Writing has always been a love and a fear. I written as long as I can remember but Ive never shared my work. Then one day I got brave. I wanted to write I wanted to share my stories with the world. Is that good enough? I wondered if I write what publishers and readers want...I wonder do I lose sense of self or does that mean I just write with passion and vivid detail? Well I guess if I wanted to write a book on the art of paint drying that would not be what readers or publishers want.

My goal as writer is to be different to push the evelope, to write about things not so mainstream. To take a certain piece of not so known and mysterious and weave a magical world and story around it. Break the sterotype!
Thats my wisdom for day ^.~

Writers block, how long does it last?

It can last years from a few days. Being a writer and wanting this to be my livihood, when I cant write its very frustrating. I discovered one of the reason was due to being told I have Migraines. Once the pain stopped I was able to write again with much joy. Then I look at it and say well this joy I just wrote is crap! BUT!!!! I always say any writing is good writing. Keep writing even if its a grocery list. While my new story seems to be stuck in the mud I still write ie Im writing in this blog, just anything that comes to mind. I get bits and moments of good ideas to which I never know what can be spun from just one simple line later on.
Thats my writing wisdom for now.

Oh the woes of writing!
Writing and being a mom doesnt always mix sometimes and also it sucks adding a case of writers block to the mix.

I stuck in my new project not sure what direction I want to go with this new story.Getting interesting feedback from my current book apparently I should of gotten TWO editors! Either way I am happy and proud and its not THAT bad for my first attempt and its seem everyone is a critic. I dont see where the mistakes are that they claim...maybe I should ask or maybe they are jealous. Im just an single mom trying to do what she loves. I should ask these blokes what is it that seem to be improper to them. Yes the way the character talks in the book is a little different but she is an Angel and translate from her Angelic language to ways of human understanding is hard. Though self proclaimed "Angels" claim that they have no problem translating. Well good for them! Weirdos! Me and my editor person do not see where them mistakes are.

I shrug the stuff off Im happy and its not bad for my first attempt. We live and learn and I thank the two brave souls who purchased a copy.
I havent written much since it. Stuck in my new story but I still have been writing. That was my first lesson learned. Always write to keep the flow going never know what will come out too. Always write.

So now my book is published....now what?
I have taken a little break, but now starting to get back into working on my new project.

Also there is the beloved feedback from the public. It's seems everyone is a critic and an editor even though I had my book looked over by a very pretigious editor they still asked did I have an editor? They then high and mighty go on to say they read the sample and found some of this and that. I proudly say I did. My editor is from the U.K. So maybe that the issue I dont know. My editor was a little miffed too. Hope he is okay cause I owe him alot. He edited for me and my charge was just an autograph copy of my book. He's very sweet to of done so. The mistakes others find actually they are not mistakes. But to the American eye they are I guess. Maybe I should of published in Brittin. I kind of got the writers woes.

Economy is bad too so will people buy my book? Though happy to say I had 2 copies sold so yay! This is not bad for my first attempt. Can I really make this a career? I already taken the first step and I am an author I published a novella. I've also inspired a lot of people to write themselves so that really touching to me. I think I am ready and I can take the boo's with the bravo's. So bring it on! I can take of for the dream!

I can honestly say my book idea came as a dream. It was my "awakening" so to speak. The story bubbled up and I could not stop writing. I even wrote at work on my lunch break and in between breaks. If I ran out of work to do I would writing instead of asking for more work to do,to me I was working hey! This is my first time writing a book. My past works were script writing. I wrote comic book script which then an artist drew. I made two so thats not half bad and it was fun. Artist loved me for my direct detail but still giving them creative freedom. But in comic script writing you got nothing without an artist which are hard to find sometimes so I thought I'd be the norm and write a book. I thought writing was writing but I was wrong. Writing a book is very different from writing a script. I had to learn all over again. I studied other Authors and their writing styles and how they made their words flow and describe things. I learned I totally lacked in this. Im proud to say I self taught myself. I dont have a piece of paper of a degree but I know my skill and I still am learning. I knew my writing skills had gotten rusty and this is so not like script writing where I was a detail whiz!

The story grew and what I got was a novella which is not bad for my first time. It was a lot of hard work and dedication. I love this story, I even hated this story and I actually shelved it for a long time till a friend reminded why I love to write and I got my passion back. Going back I to it I saw what had been bugging me before and corrected it. Just when I thought I was finished with the book Id get another brain storm of ideas. It was quite pains taking. I never thought Id actually be finished. Just when I thought I was...Nooooo change this now perfect....nope let add this. It was insane.

Then finally yes it was done! Excited yet debating I decide to take a stab at publishing it. It was a novella so I went to self publishing. In self publishing though I got a publisher and they are distrubting my book for me to other online retailers around...least I think that is still in the process stage. I will keep ya all updated.

So there you have it From Concept to Published

I am not sure why I am doing this. Im not a famous, but I wanted a site of my own where I could showcase my greatest accomplishment.

I PUBLISHED MY FIRST BOOK! Though nothing has changed. I feel no different except maybe a little more stressed and tired. It was not easy and will I take a break? Probably not since Im working on my next book right now. BUt Im trying too. A lot of tears and cursing went into this all. Hahaha. I do feel I made a big step and perhaps I can make it after all.